Fantasy and Reality

So I know very well that I'm a hardcore manga reader. Evidently as well, I read more shoujo than shounen manga. Shoujo manga basically covers alot of romance and stuff.
No doubt, I truly enjoy watching a good romance blossom. Why? Probably because deep down I want something so beautiful to happen to me as well.
I mean, if you've read, many times, people talk about how the TV is getting more interesting while human life is getting more and more boring. It's the same in a way. Humans love the TV because it shows fantasies that cannot or rarely occur in real life. Same for manga. (Any kind)
I guess I feel sad because love is not a reality for me.
The worst thing is that I don't feel love for anyone. I suppose I love my family. I don't know how to say this well but I guess we've lived together so long that you don't feel like you love them though you do.
Yknow that one thing that says:

"The most important person is the one who appears in your mind after reading this sentence." 
or
"The person you think of first thing in the morning and the night is your most important person."

Or something like that. The thing is... No one appears in my mind even as I think about it long and hard. This makes me scared bcas it means one of the 2 things:
1) I simply have no actual feelings for people around me.
2) I'm self-centered and I feel that I'm more important, which is why I only care about myself.

Both answers aren't things I like very much at all.

But back to the original topic, I haven't been able to feel an ounce of love for anyone since I moved. I don't know if it's because everyone sucks, or no one is compatible, or whatever but I don't feel any love for anyone. That's 2 years without any kind of feelings for a single person. I don't know if this is normal, but at least last time, I'd like someone or even be interested in them.

Another problem is probably that I don't really have any guy friends either. However, when you're ugly and unsociable and painfully awkward, it's hard to even make normal friends. Idek if I deserve to complain here. I guess you would say I didn't put in any effort to socialise or find someone. I guess I'm simply waiting for a miracle that doesn't exist.

This is probably why I'm drowning myself in fantasies to make up for the unpleasant reality.

I guess I just want someone who would be with me at hard times and would take care of me and care for me. I doubt any friend I have would go this far to help me either.
I guess I just want to know that someone genuinely loves me. Not only in a family or friend sort of way. But in a romantic way. It's kinda depressing to feel that no one has ever loved you as a girl. It makes you feel lacking. I know I am but still.

All this kinda hurts but is it right to escape to fantasy?

PS: This is not for gaining attention. It's for me to express myself, thanks for understanding.